So currently, I just finished having some real talks with my boyfriend. I know I should be at school, but it feels like there's so much holding me back right now from going there. Although it is adding on to my stress.. it helps to be at home to just relax, unwind, and chill.. it's great to overlook all your problems before heading face first diving into it all. First things first, this situation still isn't helping me. I can't help but think about, how much I need you as a friend. It sounds utterly stupid for me to be wishing we were friends again because of what happened, but I'm so willing to put that in the past and forget everything just so we could go back to the way it was. It's harder to replace bestfriends, then it is to replace boyfriends. And that's an honest lesson I've learned. I'm sorry to be so pessimistic in the morning, but it just adds to how I feel about relationships, weather they be friendships or boyfriend/girlfriend relationships. Everybody is meant to leave you or hurt you. You should never set yourself up to believe that somebody will be there forever, because that word only exists to comfort those people who live in a fantasy world where everything is perfect and where people are pretty naive. Forget all the promises, because their comfort to a fool. Snap back to reality, there is no such thing as forever and promises were made to be broken.