3 years down, wow. It's been forever with us. I guess that's how you know someone legitimately cares for you. When you've put them through hell and back and they're still there for you. They're watching over you.. they don't want you to fuck up. Talking to you like this actually brought tears to my eyes. Yeah, I ain't that trooper I used to be. I actually don't know who I've become. Talking to you is like taking a quick glimpse down memory lane. I did used to go to class, I did used to care. How did this all start? This endless downwards spiral of me not caring for anything - not even myself? When did I become MORE cold hearted than I was before. Even though, it's not necessarily about when it happened.. it's more why. What was the cause? And, what can I do to fix it? Like what he said, it starts with me. No matter how many people say they care, and try to help me.. nothing will change if I don't take the first step.. I guess this is my new years resolution.. to fucking smarter up. And I'm doing this for everybody who has said they were worried, everybody who said they miss the old me, everybody who is tired of seeing me fuck up.
This one's for you <3
love you all.